It's my anniversary! I can't believe its been three whole years! I have shared my testimony on my blog before but here it goes again!
Three years ago on this very day I was on my knees crying out to God at a Sunday morning service at Greater Mount Calvary Church in Washington D.C. I stumbled in the sanctuary with tears welling up from my eyes totally broken, lost and hopeless.
June 19th 2011, I made a decision that would forever change my life. I was in college working as an entertainment journalist, hosting my nightly radio show, working two jobs, and going to school. Yet with all that going on, something was missing. Although I was doing really well in school, I was at a point in life where I felt so empty, so broken, and so far from God's love. By this time, I had lost my grandfather, my grandmother, my mother, and had recently found out who I thought was the "love of my life" had cheated on me with a girl whom he was dating for a whole year out of the two we were together.
My world literally felt like it came crashing down. This life I was trying to build for myself totally meant nothing. I was empty, I was lost and I was broken.
This left me in critical condition and in desperate need of God's love that I had been longing to feel for so long.
Growing up in the church in Chicago meant absolutely nothing at this moment. I could no longer rely on my grandmothers prayers. I had to make a decision and ask myself, "Who and what do I really believe?" Although I was baptized when I was nine, it seemed like it meant nothing. Yet in time, I realized how it was connected to everything.
It was a Sunday and I found myself at a church on my knees with tears pouring out my eyes before God, praying, "God, today, I surrender and commit my ENTIRE life to you!" I no longer wanted to have one foot in and one foot out. I no longer just wanted to go to church on Sunday, and live how I wanted to live the other six days of the week. I no longer wanted to try and make sense out of my life and I allowed myself to be totally broken before His feet.
Nevertheless, over the course of three months, my life began to radically change from the inside out and God flipped my life upside down. I had an encounter with God like no other. I knew God had been calling me deeper and into a more intimate relationship with Him, but for so long I was confused on how to get there.
That night, June 19th 2011, I went home and I was cleaning out my desk. In the middle of doing this, I found this beautiful bible with pink flowers on it. I was totally baffled. I had never seen this bible in my life! I opened it up and looked at who it was from. I realized it was a gift from my friends mother four years prior and yet the whole time, I didn't even realize it was there.
I sat there and cried. God was not slow to answer my prayer. I knew in that moment, my life was getting ready to change forever.
I opened it up and began to read it. Aside from reading it in church on Sundays, I never really read the Bible on my alone time. My mentality was, "Ain't nobody got time for that!" I never studied it for myself. Prior to this, all the Bibles I had would sit up on the shelf and collect dust! I was afraid of what it had to tell me about my life because I didn't want to change my life. However when I opened it this time, it was different. I felt a sense of peace, love and hope. In this moment, the Word of God became alive to me for the first time.
"For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart." (NIV) Hebrews 4:12
From that day on, I could not get my head out of the Bible. I realized I had been so dead on the inside for so long, my soul was thirsty for this LIFE I never experienced the fullness of. It was the first time in my life that it all made sense. There were no unanswered questions. There was no error in His Word. God showed out in mighty way using people, events, signs, miracles and wonders.
I studied and prayed, day and night. Whenever I was not in His presence I would be a hot mess! Yet, I felt the joy of the Lord expanding inside of me. I was able to taste His goodness and the Light of the Kingdom of God began to manifest inside of me like never before. This was both scary, yet exciting.
To say the least, God swept me off my feet by His unconditional, unwavering, and steadfast love for me. I was enamored by the beauty of Christ and gained a mind blowing understanding of the width, height and depth of the Cross. I was enthralled by my heavenly Father and realized that He was more than enough for me.
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!" (NIV) 2 Corinthians 5:17.
By the time school started back in August, I was a total new creation in Christ and everyone could see it. He had made all my broken pieces a beautiful masterpiece that only the Master can make. It was a fire shut up in my bones for God and I couldn't hide it. It was the first time in my life where I felt like the real me was finally coming out!
Now here I am, three years later, with an even more desire to know and share God, and carrying even greater joy. I have a ministry called Cookies, Cappuccino and Christ, do many speaking engagements and am dedicated to doing the work of the Lord. Now to be honest, there is much more to my testimony, however this is all the information the Lord has allowed me to release at this time. However, my book, whenever God releases me to publish it, will contain it all.
If you have not received Jesus as your Savior and after reading this you would like to, say this prayer:
I here and now repent for my sins, and believe in Jesus Christ, the Son of God.
I believe that Christ died for me, as my substitute, and rose from the dead according to the Scriptures.
Thank you God, for sending Your Son, and paying my debt in full.
Even though I was separated from You by my sins, You saw me helpless, and fallen, and loved me enough to die for me.
I believe that Jesus suffered the penalty of my sins, and paid the full price to clear my debt.
No sin remains to condemn me. I'm no longer guilty before You.
I believe the good news of the Cross, and Your promise that
"Whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved." (Acts 2:21)
I ask Your forgiveness, and I now receive Jesus Christ into my life as my Savior.
Today, I accept Your gift of love, mercy, peace and eternal life.
I declare by faith that Jesus Christ now lives in me.
I am a new creation in Christ, born of God with the life of Jesus in me.
I trust the blood of Christ blots out every sin from my life. My record is clean by Your mercy.
According to Your Word, I am now forgiven, I am now saved.
I pray the Lord heals, delivers and sets you free from every stronghold in your life so you can walk in the liberty Christ died for us to have. If you are saying this prayer for the first time, please write and tell me your experience. May the peace and joy of the Lord be with you!
Every other Sunday, I teach on a conference call. I would love for you to join me! The next one is Sunday, June 29th at 7/8pm EST. I will post the official flyer soon.
Want Cookies, Cappuccino & Christ to come to your city? Already have a venue in mind? Email me!
I would like to plan a winter ski resort trip. We will have speakers, seminars, worship, fellowship and a ton of other super fun things! If you are interested on being on the planning team, please email me.
I am now accepting speaking engagement request for the fall. You can fill out the booking form under the contact tab.
Lastly, I will be having a crazy sale on my online store this weekend. All funds go toward supporting Cookies, Cappuccino and Christ. Purchase something for yourself, a friend, or family member and please support!
Love you all dearly!